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7th May 2011

ala_bootykins2:35am: troubles and the like
I really never thought I would be the kind of person who would trust blindly (or be unable to communicate with) someone who she lived with. Apparently I am (though I still believe I tried pretty hard to communicate and understand the issues at hand). I am extremely upset. Why would anyone be so underhanded when being direct is the only way? I really believe that last bit.

19th January 2010

artsystrange3:40pm: Things I need to do this year:
*I need to finally, completely let go of my past relationship and start to live my own life,let go of regrets and get to a point where I'm not going to feel hurt if he starts to see someone else
*I need to forgive myself for all the times I've acted passively and created problems for myself and learn to act assertively in all aspects of my life

most importantly
*I need to learn to love myself wholly

I also need to trust that even though it feels hopeless right now, one day there will be someone out there who I will love with all of my heart and who will always makes me feel loved. That I can do better than what I had, and that there IS better out there and that I WILL find them one day.
Current Mood: contemplative

9th December 2009

phantmgreeneyes9:08pm: You know what really sucks?
Developing a crush on a straight girl. Especially a straight girl who has a boyfriend.
Love, me.

8th October 2009

artsystrange8:57am: Man vent
I'm feeling particularly crabby this morning for various reasons, and can't seem to shake it so I'm just going to vent one of those things that's just annoying me.
So an old friend/ acquaintance of mine was at a bar down the street and invited me down for a drink. I was in a good mood and restless so I thought, what the hell why not we can just have a drink and chat it'll be fun!
Apparently not! When I got there he was allready drunk, but kept insisting that he wasn't. It was very similar to that date that i had awhile ago, where the guy spent the whole time talking about himself and not even bothering to ask anything about me or my opinions or even pretending to listen when I kept trying to change the subject.
I even said when I first got in there "I had a great day!"... you'd think he'd have the decency to at least ask why i had a great day, instead of immediately going off on something about himself.
Then it came to the point where he kept making me uncomfortable by talking about how I seem like i'm so open and how he wished I was interested in him in that way. He would not shut up about it even though I distinctly changed the subject and said 'let's talk about something else' everytime.
And then! He kept whining about how his girlfriend (they have one of those swinger relationships) was out for the night, and how he was soooo depressed that he had to sleep alone and he just couldn't stand it.
Oh boo fucking hoo! If you seriously are that unable to deal with feeling alone, you have major issues. What was I supposed to feel bad for you?
And then he was so drunk that he couldn't figure out his way off campus after he walked me home.
So that was a total waste of time! Not hanging with that guy again.

14th September 2009

artsystrange6:10pm: So, Mark met someone else :-(
I guess it's some girl he knew in his sophmore year of college and they met again randomly at michaels and spent the whole night talking online.
I didn't think I would get as upset about it as I did.

One part of me is happy for a friend.
But another part of me just feels sad.

I feel sad because they talked about things that I tried so hard to get him to talk to me about. It seems like anytime we tried to have those kinds of conversations it just ended up in an argument, or him just being immature about something. But come to find out, it's not that he can't have those kinds of conversations, it's that he couldn't have them with me. So what's wrong with me then huh?
Also, i feel like i put up with so much bullshit with him after the break up. All those bullshit times he tried to kiss me again, or we slipped up. Even that stupid fucking time I let him convince me into having sex again, and it just fucking sucked. And how I was the one who finally put an end to all that even though he was the one who broke up with me. And how even though it's been 5 months since we broke up, it's only been about a month since all that bullshit ended. And some how he's the one who finds someone first? What the fuck? And how still even after all that I'm still so god damned emotionally attached to him! Why can't I be like all my other friends and break up with some one and then find someone else right away?? That seems like it'd be soo much easier!!
And how lately I've just been feeling so lonely! And how what I really fucking want is a guy who I can have really good conversation with, and somehow HE is the one who finds what I so badly want right now. And the only guy who seems to have an interest in me right now A) can never get up the guts to do anything about it, and B) doesn't talk about much.

And to top it all off, I actually talked to Marta about how I was feeling about everything that happened this summer and how it hurts all of us in this dorm that it's all unresolved. And I actually poured alot of emotion into it. And I was really fucking civil about it. And she has yet to respond to me. Sooo, yeah that's kind of shitty having someone you considered to be a good friend decide you're not worth responding too.
Current Mood: crappy

16th June 2009

artsystrange10:35am: feeling fabulous
Last night was probably one of the best nights I've had hanging out with Mark in a really long time.
We were joking around about what each others future relationships were going to look like and it turned into him throwing something in my face that really hurt me. But instead of just feeling bad about it I just epicly blew up at him, and that just changed everything. We were finally able to just lay all the shit of our relationship and the events following the end out on the table and talk about it and deal with it. Everything he's been feeling and everything I've been feeling. After that we were just able to have a really nice time just hanging out. We laughed together more than we've laughed since I can even remember.
I feel so much better about everything now. I feel like I'm finally in a place where I can move foward. Like the weight of our past has been lifted off my shoulders and i just don't even have to care or worry anymore. I was so worried that I wouldn't be able to stay good friends with him once one of us started dating again because it would hurt too much, but now I can honestly say I know we will be able to be good friends. I don't know what my "moving forward" place is going to look like, but I'm finally ready to get there.
I haven't felt this good since mid semester when this whole breaking up thing began. It was the first night when he wanted to break up but then didn't, and then all the mess leading up to the final break up, and then the mess after, it weighed so much on me. But it's over now, it's off my shoulders and the cloud is out of my heart. Everything is forgiven and I can move forward. It's an amazing feeling.
Current Mood: content

24th April 2009

artsystrange5:53pm: probably tmi
I'm horny as hell and I have an opportunity for a get together tonight with an old acquaintance that would likely end up in me getting laid.
Yet I'm not really wanting to do it.
Huh...I guess I do have standards.

7th April 2009

artsystrange8:17pm: note:
trying to stay friends so soon after breaking up, is harder than I thought.
We're getting together Thursday because I wanted to go to his art show...our breaking up doesn't change that.
But I think after that I think I may just say that I need some space...like some real space.
I find myself still feeling like nothing has changed. We still talk like we used to, because we never really talked all that lovey dovey too each other to begin with. But I still find myself wishing he would call me, or text me, or wondering if he's thinking of me. Or day dreaming of past times. All while realizing that fuck, I'm thinking of him too much. I should be focusing my energies on moving on instead of thinking of him. I feel totally fucking lame.
Current Mood: aggravated

2nd March 2009

belladonna3311:35am: drunk dialing?
calling me up at midnight and telling me that you still love me and cant live with out me...
while throwing up in the bathroom of the bowling alley because you drank way too much
is not a way to win me back. really.
esspecially since I had only like 6 hours of sleep in the past 48 hours.
you upset me soo much last night! I had to throw up.
it was gross.
you were the one that didnt want to fix it.
I gave you the choice.  you said you didnt want to fix anything.
so I moved on . I found someone else, you found brenna,
I was just doing fine.
even after the dancing class we taught and after
you need to stop being a baby. and move on.
you have brenna. she may be odd at times, but she is sweet!
and I have mike now and I really like him

so you can learn to deal with it
just like i did.
jerk face.
let me go.

and do you know what the worst part it?
i do still love you. so it makes it all the worse.

21st February 2009

artsystrange11:28am: bad habits formulating
I've noticed that I've got alot of bad habits coming into my life.

Forgetfulness: I have about 8 tasks that I've been meaning to do, all rather important and none of them have been done yet.
I still need to..
*Give Tina her books back from way back when. I've wanting to go to half price and pick up some books to give a long with them as like a "sorry I took so long to give them back" deal but I keep not finding the time to do that as well.

*Send Shelly the Wedding Present I have for her that's been sitting under my bed all year

*Get Leah and Kevin's wedding present and send it to them since I was unfortunately un-able to make it to the wedding. I was going to, but then my work training went to late.
This factor has actually been a source of anxiety dreams for me lately. I keep having these dreams that I run into Leah and then she kills me (literally) for not making it to her wedding.

*Set up my HECUA course to count as GSJ and see what I need to do for that.
(Not necessarlly my fault. I keep trying to get ahold of her and not being able to get through email or phone, or showing up at her door because she's never there when I'm on campus)

*Take care of Financial Aid for HECUA.
(also not necessarly my fault. I think because I'm signed up for study abroad they think they need to send my mail to mom and dad's house. Which means that i haven't gotten my bill yet. Must call mom and dad about that today. Also...the mail place is never open when I'm on campus)

I'm sure there's more I just can't seem to remember what they are right now.

I've also been really bad about working out and eating healthy.
Those tater tots/potato triangles are going to be the death of me.
I stopped working out for awhile because I wanted to get into a schedule for class and see where it fit in...and now i'm having trouble getting back into it.

My room is constantly a mess..even when I clean it.

Note to self. Don't have bad habits!!

12th February 2009

belladonna335:40pm: I found a nice guy named mike.
he is sweet, a good kisser, fun to talk to, and he is a democrat.
he cares if I say something and we can talk for hours.
we really enjoy each others company
and its nice

and now Rob still wants to get back with me.
he calls me and texts me and acts more charming then he ever was when we were dating
don't get me wrong, I loved him, and I will always love him.  we had a good relationship for a while
but I know now that its time to move on and find something that's better for me.
had to call him last night and tell him that I am seeing someone else.
poor guy.  he is taking it pretty bad.
I wish I could make it all better for him.
but I need to think of me.
and whats better for me too.

12th January 2009

artsystrange10:19pm: Just to warn you... this entry has some personal details about my life. I just need somewhere to think out loud. I trust you guys not to be weird about it.

So. Mark and I kind of, un-officially broke up today. Un-officially. Weird right?
It all started last night when I called him after I got home from the club last night. We were talking and having a good laugh, and somehow the topic of sex came up...and it somehow winded up with him saying seriously that "pre-marital sex is immoral and a sin."
So I'm like, "WTF dude, what does that make me, your immoral sin?" I mean is that what he thinks every time we're together? That this is immoral? Yeah, I felt pretty bad about that statement actually...what coming from the guy who I've been sleeping with for a year and 1/2.
After some awkward moments of him trying to explain what he means, and me more and more feeling pretty weird about it. I stated the obvious. "We're not forever are we?"
Soon followed some heavy conversation that ended in a to be continued later manner.
Then today I got a call from him after my class asking if I wanted to hang out...and comes the to be continued later.
So how it goes, I guess, is that we both could really see each other as someone you could spend the rest of your life with. (I realized this the other day when we were cruising around in his car, and he was going off on one of his crazy ideas about how he wanted to paint the world from an aliens point of view, and I realized that i absolutely loved that about him. Because that's so him.) But since I'm not christian or more don't believe in god in the same way that he does, our one day "forever" wouldn't be the "christian marriage" that he wants for his life. So in reality, it wouldn't work. I'm not entirely sure what to think. I agree with him, but I don't want to agree with him. I get that, that is a huge part of his life, the biggest part and I totally respect that. I'm trying to understand it. I don't know. I just, I don't quite get why I don't fit into that picture then. Or maybe it's that I don't want to get it.
So the question was, where do you draw the line? When is that point where you say, "well,this isn't going to work, let's end it."? Neither of us want to break up. There are still many things that I wanted to do with him. Like pajama dates, and a road trip somewhere.
We've decided to make a list, of all things we want to do together as a couple right now. And enjoy our relationship in that time. And then when that list is done, and probably when summer comes around. It will be time to make the un-official, official.
And he said to me that no matter who he dates or marries in the whenever future, that he will make sure that they know, that our relationship will always be incredibly special and important to him. And there were lots of tears. And moments.

We were supposed to hang out when he got done with work tonight and have a reading party. (I know right? Mark was going to read O_O) But his car spun on the way over and he got into an accident. He's fine. His car isn't. So that didn't happen.
So I feel kind of like a huge range of emotions right now. I'm happy that things are ending on good note. And that we're together now. And sad that it's ending. And feeling shitty that he crashed while coming to my place. Feeling kind of shitty about the whole thing. I don't know. I'm just alot right now. Blah.
So for now I'm just gonna be all right. Things will go where they go I guess.

so yeah. good to get that out. People who talk to him, please don't talk to him about this. I just needed a place to get my thoughts out.
We'll see where things go from here.
Current Mood: blah

2nd November 2008

artsystrange8:49pm: ponderings
So I can't seem to get into my paper right now so I'm just journal for a bit.
I'm feeling slightly guilty about not going mike and mikey's halloween party. Mainly because I actually really miss hanging out with those guys (Mainly Josh, Kevin and Mike). Don't get me wrong I had way more fun at Dave's party than I probably would have at Mike's party.
I just find I can't hang around mike, and sometimes kevin for too long. Mostly because everything is always all about them. And I guess I'm just tired of being around people who make everything about them. One time I was having big problems with mark, and mike called to try and get me to talk to him about it, so I'm like ok what the hell, we were good friends at one point maybe he'll see something that I'm not. But no, it just ended up being, me briefly talking about the problem, and than mike using that as an excuse to talk about his religious philosophies (mark and I's problems were around religion so that's not totally random) and how some how because he thinks the way he does about religion, if I just had mark talk to him that he'd be able to fix it. It became all about him.It wasn't about me in anyway even though I was the one who was having the problem. And seriously...why the fuck would mark listen to mike about religion? he wouldn't...

Even with Kevin, I feel like every time I try and talk to him about problems that I'm having, it somehow ends up being Kevin talking about his problems, or his life.
Everything always has to be about them. Everything in a conversation has to be about their point of view. In groups, they are the ones who constantly need to have attention on them. If you don't agree with what they say, well that you're just horrible and wrong. If you don't laugh at the jokes that they find funny, well than you just have no sense of humor. If you don't want to go to their party, well that's just a blasphemy and you're a traitor.
I hate constantly having to re-assure someone, that I enjoy their presence in my life. We can't just sit and have a conversation together, it has to be this stupid game where they say things and I have to reassure them that I think that what they say is cool. It's an entirely one sided conversation. Not too say that it's specifically me that has to be that person to reassure them, I'm sure it's that way with everyone in their lives. I'm just tired of being in friendships like that.
Plus Mikey doesn't seem to like me all that much. I feel like every time I around her there's this barrier. She seems angry, or like she needs to make a point about something. Maybe that's just her demeanor though.
So I'm glad I didn't go to the party. I just do genuinely miss them, so I'm feeling bad that I never get to see them (mainly my fault.) I miss their nerdy essence, and how excited they get about things (when it's not about trying to prove that they're right about it). How kind each of them are at their core when they aren't being arrogant.
How do you get past that stupid game without having to become the rival "I'm right" person? How do I hang out with them without wanting to strangle them for there self absorbedness? Maybe it's just that Mark is like that alot of the time (but in a different way) that I've become less tolerant of it. Or maybe I've just grown up a little and have decided I just don't want to deal with that anymore.
so yeah..that's my ponderment of the night.
Current Mood: sad

20th October 2008

artsystrange10:03am: yeah this seems to have become my psycho-analyzing counsel blog for now:
Started my morning out with a work meeting with josh. Seriously, I love the guy! He's the brother I never had. I love my team! I love that we can talk about work, but that we can also talk about the shit in our lives and that we all just support each other with everything.
I finally was able to just talk out loud about how I've been in this depressed funk lately. We were talking about life and he said he'd been noticing I've been looking more worn than usual, and asked what was up..and then I just started rambling about it.
And you know, he helped me discover something that I hadn't noticed before. I think a big problem is that I can't seem to just live in the moment anymore, not that I was any good at it in the first place, but right now it just seems to be off the chart. And because of that I just can't enjoy anything anymore, because I'm constantly thinking of the next thing I need to do, the next step in my life. Like with the pub crawl, I couldn't enjoy the pre-party in the park because I kept think "arrg why don't we just get this over and move on the next step"..same with graham's party, I couldn't really enjoy seeing everyone or interact in a way that I wanted because my mind was just filled with all the shit I have to do this week. How much more could I enjoy my life if I could just sit still in it for one minute? Sometimes I have moments where I'm really in the moment and just loving life, but those moments seem to be fewer and fewer.
so yeah...I've finally decided to go to counseling. It starts tomorrow. I know what I need to fix, and I kind of know how I need to fix it, I just need someone to tell me what I allready know, and more I need someone to tell me that it's ok to fix it, and that I probably should.
so the two questions I have:
how much more could I enjoy life I could live in the moment
how much more could I rock at life if I could believe in myself
Current Mood: bouncy

9th June 2008

artsystrange7:51pm: well that was fun
So I spent a week planning this big dinner to celebrate mark and how awesome he did on his cake and how much work he put into it and sort of to celebrate my internship, but mostly to just show him how proud I am of how much work he did. And now he's asleep upstairs because he's too tired from hanging out with someone else all day,  and he doesn't want to go to dairy queen because apparently he allready went today.
Nothing against you Laur I'm really glad you had fun today

I just wish he had considered maybe being awake for me.

Now I'm gonna go wake him up and tell him this..and then force him to buy me something from dairy queen.
Current Mood: pissed off

12th May 2008

artsystrange11:56am: random bitchfest
I'm so freaking bitchy right now!!..so i'm gonna complain about it, you don't  want to hear it don't read it.

I've still got a shit ton of stuff left to do this week. My research paper is getting no where fast even though I've been doing nothing but that for the last few days. My room is so dirty it smells but no one has the time to clean it. I haven't had the time to put my laundry away so my clothes are everywhere on my floor. I still haven't packed anything. I have nothing cute to wear to my own freaking party on saturday, and i don't have the time or the money to get anything. and I have this huge zit on my chin that won't go away. WAAAAH!

I want to cry but I can't seem to do that anymore either, unless someone is there to make me feel like it's ok that i'm crying...other wise I feel like I"m just wasting my time.


ok...I feel better now.
Current Mood: bitchy

17th March 2008

pyro199:11pm: ♥!Collapse )

27th February 2008

belladonna338:58pm: im talking to a random friend of my sisters..
 he just told me that when they become galactic emporer,
I am going to be their emperess
and have all the heirs to the galactic throne...

I think people are strange

7th February 2008

artsystrange7:02pm: Oh Jerry...
So I had this friend awhile back who from the night that i met him we just hit it off really well.(As two people I mean...not as like...giggity giggity.)
We stayed up till 4 in the morning talking for 7 hours straight.
And then we went out on a date to Uncommon Grounds and stayed there for 3 hours just chatting about anything and everything. He's seriously one of the most down to earth, nicest guys I know...and he's just fun to hang around.
We stopped hanging out after he got a girlfriend because his girlfriend was really needy and didn't like him hanging out with other girls that much. So I respected that and we pretty much only talked once in awhile on aim. But now him and his girlfriend have broken up, so we can hangout again.
We're getting together soon to just catch up and hangout...and go to the animation exhibit at the science museum woo hoo!

The thing I'm worried about is that once we do start hanging out again, we'll likely want to hang out more often. I'm afraid of what that could mean for my relationship with mark. Not that I would ever cheat on mark because I would never. Just, Jerry is a guy, and I'm a girl...so is it ok for me to hang out with him alot if i'm not dating him?
I want to see jerry and hangout with him...because he's one of the few guys that I just feel totally comfortable around. But I don't want to jeoparidize my relationship...
ahh! I don't know what to do!!!
Current Mood: anxious

2nd February 2008

artsystrange3:34pm: annoyances:
Things that currently piss me off:

* irresponsible pet owners who do stupid things like put an animal to sleep or throw it out in the streets just because it doesn't act like how they expect it to.

*stupid people who get into relationship just because they feel like they should be in one, and then wonder why their relationships never work out.

*people who are clingy
Current Mood: annoyed

15th January 2008

phantmgreeneyes11:36pm: fucking hilarious.
artsystrange11:09am: I'm going to add my 2 cents to the boy pile.

So I was sick all day yesterday. Starting at about 2 or 3 last night. And I'm kind of annoyed that Mark wasn't there for me in any way. He was there when I got sick. But when I came back into the room he had his coat and shoes on saying that he had work at 1 tommorow and should probably go home and sleep, quickly coming up with an excuse not to be there. And then he didn't call me to see how I was doing untill 9 at night, he said he would have called earlier but he was waiting to see if I was going to hop online...so he watched sci fi movies all day instead. And then we were talking and he asked how I was doing so I said I was kind of lonely, and when he said he was too I suggested he come over and we watch movies together. He refused.

He talks about how he wants a baby. Yet he can't even take care or even be there for his sick girlfriend who he claims he wants to marry.
If it had been him sick I would have stayed with him as long as I could, and then after work I would have gone back over with soup.

SO boo on you mark... you just lost some points.
Current Mood: cranky

3rd January 2008

artsystrange6:51pm: My bad day:
* My relationship is falling apart. Though we keep trying to fix it, it's just doesn't work.Maybe this time we'll fix it, but I'm really losing hope that we will. Yet I can't seem to just let him go. It hurts so much to think of him with someone else, or even just not in my life. I'm not willing to give up yet, but what good is it doing staying?.So I don't know what to do.

* My bus driver was an asshole. The bus was supposed to leave at 9:30 an it was only 9:15. so I was being a nice pedestrian and not doing that asshole thing where you run ignore the fact that the light says you can't cross and you run across the street in front of everyone who's trying to drive...but than my bus driver was impatient and decided to leave early. I flagged him down and he yelled at me for "being to slow". thanks.

*The girls in my class were too scared to do anything with any sort of strength. So I couldn't kick or punch as hard as I wanted. Which was frustrating.

*Someone thought that my coat was their friends. So they just took it while I was in the other room changing. Ok first off, who the fuck is her bimbo friend who would go outside in the middle of the fucking winter without her coat? And why the fuck didn't she bring it back or turn it into the lost and found when she realized it wasn't hers?

*so I was calling around trying to maybe find a ride home, when my phone died. So that idea got canceled.

*The religion teacher at hamline (who's awesome by the way) was nice enough to lend me his sweater. But it wasn't very warm so I got cold pretty fast.

*and then to top it all off some impatient jerk almost ran me over with his car at the stoplight, and then got mad at me about it.

so..to conclude this rant I would like to say a great "FUCK YOU!!!" to all the assholes out there.
Current Mood: aggravated

3rd December 2007

pyro1911:29pm: Is it can be sleep times now?
Of course I have time on my handsCollapse )
phantmgreeneyes6:36pm: everyone loves a meme
[1.] Where was the first time you ever kissed the last person you kissed? Wynnsuck. Catwoman. horrible movie though, don't bother seeing it.

[2.] What's the greatest thing that happened to you today?
I bought more soda. Seriously. That's it.

[3.] How many TRUE best friends do you have?
Including Heather? Maybe three.

[4.] Would you rather get up early or sleep in?
Sleep in! What kind of a crazy question is that?

[5.] Tell me where you got each article of clothing youre wearing?
Lane Bryant. Shirt and jeans both.

[6.] What's the closest thing to you that is brown?
the arm on the chair next to me.

[7.] What would you change about your life right now?
This living room here wouldn't be constantly messy.

[8.] Would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth?
smile over life, baby!!

[9.] What's on your bedroom floor right now?
dorm room? clothes. always clothes.

[10.] Who was the last person you got into an argument with?
probably my mom.

[11.] Do you trust people?
i used to. not really anymore, sadly. i've become jadded. ><

[12.] If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move?
[13.] Have you ever been out of the country?

[14.] Could you go a day without eating?
Fuck no. What kind of a crazy person do you take me for?

[15.] How much do looks matter to you?
I wish they didn't. Occasionally don't. i guess it depends on who's company I will be in.

[17.] When was the last time you had your hair cut?
Maybe a month ago?
[18.] Would you rather be mad or sad?
Mad, because that way I feel justified about it.

[19.] Does it take a lot to make you cry?
Nope. I cry over TV shows. Really. It's rather pathetic

[20.] Whats the best feeling in the world?
putting on warm clothes that are fresh out of the dryer

[21.] Are you close with your mom?
most definitely

[22.] Are your parents strict?
not really.

[23.] Do you tell your parents everything?
nope. that would be too embaressing.

[25.] Name one fear you have.

[26.] If you need to go to the store a block away, do you walk or drive?
since i have no liscense, i walk. if given the option, I would definitely drive.

27.] Does the thought of marriage scare you?
not at all, if i find the right person

[28.] How many kids do you want?
none for me, thanks. I'll be an auntie though!

[29.] What's your favorite color to wear?
blue. or red.

[30.] Who was the last person in your bedroom besides you?
dorm? probably celest. or heather.

[31.] What are you doing today?
class earlier, but other than i was super duper lazy, as is normal for mondays.

[32.] Would you rather be rich & sad or poor & happy?
poor & happy baby. what is life without happiness?

[33.] Do you work out?
god, i wish i did. -cry-

[34.] What would you do if you found a dinosaur egg?
schnuggle it.

[35.] Do you get bored easily?
i never used to! what has happened to me?

[36.] What's something that someone can do that really bothers you?
Be impatient.

[37.] Did you ever want to change your name when you were younger?
I used to. Now it just seems weird.

[38.] Do you wish you were famous?
Famous? Certainly not. I could be rich though.

[39.] Do you make a wish at 11:11?
Every possible time.

[40.] When you're at the beach, do you swim or lay out more?
Umm... probably lay out more now. With a book. I don't like beaches very much, though..

[41.] Who's the last text message you received from and what did it say?
"anything is better than sitting in class" from Lauren
[42.] What are you freakishly obsessed with?
Robin Hood, sci fi anything, hot chocolate

[43.] What's your favorite song at the moment?
Opera #2 by Vitas? i dunno.

[44.] Do you like going to the mall to shop or just shopping online?
shopping online. i fucking hate malls.

[45.] Can music affect your mood?
always. music is love.

[46.] When did you last see your best friend?
not counting heather? far too long. i miss you!

[47.] What tattoos do you want?
my pentacle butterfly, and an antique key. and i would get a paper crane for heather too.

[48.] Have you ever been in a cave?
oh yes! i love caves. i want to start a library in a cave.

[49.] Ever eaten a bug?
not that i recall...

[50.] What are you excited for?
working for the library over break. brady's party maybe? i dunno. i hope people have good christmas parties this year.
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